Heidi G karlsson

You all disappoint me.  That’s what I learned about myself the other day. I was having dinner with a friend and she said, “yeah Heidi that’s always been a thing with you. People disappoint you.”  WAaaaahhh????? Like, is what she’s saying… is she doesn’t live constantly disappointed in people?  Constantly disappointed in herself? No. She doesn’t. Apparently not everyone walks around just super disappointed in themselves and everyone else.  I did some work on it. Wrote out my philosophy of people. I have a lot of expectations of us all. And we are all very flawed and disappointing.  I kept exploring my thoughts.  My Christianity has been very disappointing to me because I haven’t become very loving, despite a ton of rule abiding and Bible reading, meeting attending, fun sacrificing etc etc (which by the way many of you didn’t do and I have so judged you and I’m so disappointed).  I think disappointment is another n...