Do you ever just think, "MAN I LOVE MY LIFE!!" ? It could just be the weather, but it could just be life. I'm sitting here in my home, working away (actually having one of those days that's begging to distract me while my insides turn ADHD) and my heart or whatever that thing is in there that lives and takes in every aspect of life and processes it for us, or it is us, well in moments it grows. Or it smiles. Or it sighs. Sometimes it cries, but not today. I just mention that because it rhymes. Could just be it's hot and sunny, I shot hoops for a few minutes and now everything is right in the world even though it just cost me $500 to get something fixed on my car. What is life (I say as a statement and not a question).Whatever it is, sometimes I'm in love with it. All the pain in the world doesn't compare to the beauty. I guess I'll just be happy with it and when the day comes and the ugliness of life shades the sun, I'll ride that one too. What to do with simultaneity except to try to use it in all of your university English papers because it sort of sums up everything. My thesis - It's all a paradox happening simultaneously. So smile or cry. I love where my choices have brought me.

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