Heidi G karlsson

I figured something out today. I saw this lady with a ring on her finger with a man without a ring on his finger. You know what I mean. I hear stories of hairdressers having to organize their bookings around ensuring certain people don't get overlapping appointments... and coffee shop people who observe marital unfaithfulness unfold before their eyes- he comes in with two different women, just on different days.. but he treats them both the same.. So I was thinking as i watched (and then quickly looked away) as the ring and the un-ring stood in line to order their drinks and semi-made out.. If there is such a thing. I was thinking - how the heck do some people find a way to trick TWO people into loving them, when some of us can't even trick one person into it. And there it is. I figured it out. You can't trick someone into love. Because then it's not love. It's a lie. Why would anyone trade a real chance at love for a lie? So maybe this lady has two men. One knows s...

At the coffee shop. Thoughts just happen here. Maybe it's the conversations I'm surrounded by. Lady behind me met a man on an online dating web site and just came home from visiting him in New Zealand. Lady across from me is doing a job interview. The interviewer is a little gruff. You know the kind, very elegant and well dressed. Older. And . . . a little demanding. I haven't seen any smiles or human reaching out. Not that she's inhuman. If I was being interviewed, I'd totally bomb this one because this lady would totally intimidate me. I wouldn't know what part of her to appeal to. Then the guy beside me with a laptop just called his mom and told her he was checking facebook for people with the same last name. Invited a guy to be his friend and said, "I'm so and so is my dad." And the guy said, "that's my dad's name too." So, I don't know if that was a coincidence, or these guys are long lost brothers, or what in this crazy ...

I have decided to stop trying to be a good Christian. The thing is, I think you either are or you aren't. Can you be a GOOD Christian or a BAD Christian? Christianity is this funny term that's supposed to describe people who are caught up in Christ, full of love for Him and who know Him on such a real and personal level that they remind people of Christ. Is Christianity about being nice and doing devotions, or is it about feeling good while singing songs about God, or is it..? What is it about me that makes me "Christian"? I hate that I feel this strange satisfaction when I have read my Bible and prayed in a day. Even better if I had some thoughts to write in my journal. It's crazy. Those are symptoms of a relationship (hopefully) but where is the actual relationship? I know we can't see Him, but we can and do know Him. Ok, we can see Him, just in more subtle, mysterious ways. More to come, I hope. I hope I forget how to try and I just learn how to be His fri...