Here's a bold move. Perhaps it will boost my readership (which by the way many of you last month either commented or emailed as a result of my lament over the lack there-of. thank you. while it is fun to write these, it is nice to know if people are reading. I have been considering getting a myspace account. I may. who knows. I'll keep you posted. but back to this new and bold venture . . . ) Many of you have been asking about guys. men. boys. you know, as in do I like anyone down here, do I see any potentials etc etc. Now, those of you who know me well know that if I did have my eye on someone I would never say so. Which is a backwards way of saying with a clear conscience that no, there is not a man that has captured my attention or whom I have begun to send prayers upward in petition to God. There are many nice people. Don't get me wrong. I am enjoying many friendships but ain't none done set my head a-turnin' if yuh know what i mean. So those of you who are praying . . . keep praying. Now that was pretty honest wasn't it. There was this one guy . . . just kidding. If anything was going on I wouldn't say anything anyway. Not in the blog. But nothing is, so i can say so. 
Ok. I want to talk about my little friend. Do you remember a while ago I think I mentioned a hearing someone say to their little boy "ok, I want you to share with integrity"? Well it turns out that "integrity" is actually a little girl's name. A little girl who's mother's name is Heidi as is my name of course as you would know by virtue of the obvious relationship you have with me, thus your valued readership. yowzers. Anyway. Teggy, as they call her, is my new little buddy. I think she's three and when I first met her she'd just watched the movie "Cars" and so when I said "what's your name" she said "tow-mater. Is your name Mater too?" But she said it like a hillbilly and I hadn't seen the movie so I was confused a little but went along with the 3 year old's game. Anyway. Now when I see her we have a little joke and I say "hey mater-too" and she recites the movie and gets all excited. Ah ... young friends. I've met some people (friends of Keri formerly B. now H.) and they're married and have kids and so they and their kids have become my friends in a manner of speaking (like for the first time last sunday i didn't sit with the Andersons in church - I sat with Teggy and Heidi and etc). So now when I go to church i have these little kids running up to me saying "Heidi!" and it feels all warm and happy. 
Today Pastor Jim and I had a huge book session. I felt exhausted afterwards. We've found a way that works for us to work together. I'm having to be much more assertive. It's not very Canadian of me, I know, but I think that there is room in Canada for people to be passionate and assertive and to still keep their citizenship. We have to get stuff done you know? Keeping peace is good and all, but sometimes things don't get done when all we're trying to do is stop people from doing things. Now that is an oversimplification and would perhaps be offensive to anyone who has served as a peace-keeper. Or not. Because a true peace keeper would likely admit that . .. well perhaps they carry arms and fire them and often aggressively assert a passionate kind of peace. Or like I have been taught - real peace is to have have your foot on the neck of your enemy. I think that's it. You know, the picture of submission. We don't shake hands with enemies. We subdue them. I watched a documentary on hitler and Britain once and how Britain wanted to appease and not go to war. And people applauded the leader who "avoided war" while millions of Jews died. Churchill - who was willing to go to war was hated because he wanted to attack. Some people say peace not war. Sometimes there is not peace without war. All this to say, I see my time here as an opportunity to not be a soft waffle, but to be willing to say and try and do and go and not let what criticism might come set the tone for how real i'll be or what extent I'll put myself out there. Sorry about the lack of cool pictures. I still no have camera.
See you at Christmas.
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