Twas the night before somethin' and I was baking cookies just in case they weren't terrible then maybe, but if not no big deal. Hmm. My voice is tired. I'm missing a few notes. I have taken naps in the last three consecutive days. I have been afraid. I've been excited. I've wondered. I've been happy. I have had dreams. Funny ones. I've felt peace. What do you do when you go where you've never gone? How do you know anything when everything is something you've never thought through? Funny how clueless I am in the middle of all this tumult and yet - peace. It's hard to patiently take the first few tentative steps without imagining how fun it would be to run. Gratitude : ) I have never used so many happy faces in my writing ever before. I can't wait to see. I am waiting to see. All I can do is wait. There is nothing else to do. Tomorrow will be a marathon of slow and then when it's finally time I will.. I will be tempted to hide inside my closet where my jacket and shoes are waiting for me to put em on so they can take me some place I've never been before.

Oh!
but surprise on my face
doesn't mean
I didn't anticipate
Just
I didn't realize
it might come
in real life
and I . . .
I
might have to try
risk
my pride
while the what if's
and how's
wait
ready to
accompany me
every unsteady
step of the way
but really
I'm ok
I asked for this
and am
without a doubt
determined
not to absent myself
and miss
such a gift.

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mdb said…
I think you should wear your Canucks jersey...do you have one? Yes...it's perfect...hah. How did your cookies turn out?
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