I was wondering if God is spontaneous. I personally don't think He is, but I think that if you talked to Him, He would say "I am." I don't know if I am comforted by the possibility that God might be spontaneous, or if the idea of God planning on doing one thing, and then suddenly changing his mind and doing something that comes out of nowhere.. I guess the fact that He is good takes care of everything... spontaneous or not.
I live on a hill, in the most beautiful area I have ever seen. Yes, there are roads carved into it and houses stacked up right next to each other... but then there are trees. Mountains. Hills. Sunsets. I am so tired my legs are buzzing. My house is silent, except for my fingers tapping on the keys of my mac. My brain is aware of .. I don't know how many things. My friend who just texted me, a new friend whose email I just read, the pile of Christmas cake on the counter that I hate, but ate a little of because there was nothing else, and my voice - which is so tired. . . and I wonder if I was mean tonight and yelled too much - but what do you do to people who are goofing around. I want to be everyone's friend... Tired. Peace. Jesus. I am alone. I'm surrounded. I make decisions constantly. I wish I had chocolate cake here. I'm glad I don't. If you were me, what one thing would you change?
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